Loss

Sometimes, when things are quiet at school/work, I find myself looking back at some of the people who came into and left my life. Perhaps I'm being dramatic by saying "left". Drifting apart from old friends is inevitable. In most instances, it happens gradually and without much fuss; and suddenly, years later, you realise that you have lost contact with someone who was once special to you.

I struggle with this feeling. I am, for the most part, completely happy with the loved ones I have around me now. And I think that's all we can strive for really, to be completely happy for the most part; we have to save that little part of wanting, to drive us forward to achieve more. I also understand, that beautiful friendships do not have to last forever. I understand that we can appreciate how important and impactful they were to us at one point in our lives, and be perfectly happy without them in the present.

Yet I find myself mourning for these friendships and I can't quite explain why. These people are still within reach, they're easy to call up; it's just that we now lead different lives and things will never be the same. I guess sometimes I just get heavy with nostalgia. It's rather ironic. I am excited about the future, I am forward looking most of the time. I know that we are happy in our individual lives and that for some, we will still continue to stay in vague contact for years. And it's ridiculous. I don't desire a close relationship with them right now. We're adults now, too many things are different, and besides, no one has the time to rebuild so many friendships.

And yet, so many "yets". I don't know why I feel so cumbered by this loss.

18th April: Baby Bai Bai Bai, Bai Bai Bai Ai ~

Leftovers from the party the night before for breakfast! 

Posing like a French lady. 

Silly baby squeezing amongst the wires to be closer to mami. 

Last day out shopping with my boy :') 

Almost got these shoes but decided against it in the end. 

Lunch "feast". 

Came home to this little bae. 

Checking daddy's bags. 

Last family pic :') 

Child throwing a tantrum on the floor lol. 

Fell asleep and didn't give daddy a last goodbye kiss. 

We came home alone ): 

No daddy ): 

17th April: Screening Party

We all woke up late due to being up till 3/4am because of the parvo scare. 

Someone was not worse for wear, though his poop did remain watery in varying degrees for a while. That was not fun. 

Cuddling after breakfast. 

What a lucky pup. 

Waiting for our guests to arrive. 

Daddy loves you Tofu :') 

FEASTTTTTTT. I'm hungry looking at this. 

<3 

We watched 21 Jump Street! 

Night time party is too tiring for a tiny little pupper. 

But he cuddled with all his aunties and uncles! 

Lol. 

Sometimes we behave normally. 

This was the last night that Sam was around :')

16th April: Dan Murphy x Petition x Emergency Vet

You are an angel :') 

Afternoon nap. 

Happy Easter!

Shopping for our party the next day. 

We witnessed some nastiness at the grocery store :< 

Tofu and deck all ready for the outdoor screening party! 

Leftover mussels and flat bread for lunch. 

To Petition for dinner! Sam was really keen on visiting and we were not disappointed. 

Truffle fries (I think??), szechuan chicken wings (which were good but I can't take the numbness of the szechuan, Sam loved it though), and lamb ribs with aoli which were really good! 

Cheeky baby :3 

So pretty :3 

I love this qt so much. 

Tofu was so glad to see us home! Unfortunately, he became sick soon after, and diarrhoea-ed on the floor ): 

Gave him a shower in the middle of the night after such a long day out! 

He then proceeded to diarrhoea again all over the room :'( 

So we decided to bring him to the emergency vet in case it was a case of parvo. 

He was fine and we were out $200+, but it was good to have peace of mine. Really grateful that Sam was here, it would've been super scary to have diarrhoea all over my room from a tiny baby at 2am on Easter Sunday! <3