Of Love and Ties that Bind

"We call love what binds us to certain creatures only by reference to a collecting way of seeing for which books and legends are responsible. But of love I know only that mixture of desire, affection, and intelligence that binds me to this or that creature. That compound is not the same for another person. I do not have the right to cover all these experiences with the same name. This exempts one from conducting them with the same gestures. The absurd man multiples here again what he cannot unify. Thus he discovers a new way of being which liberates him at least as much as it liberates those who approach him."

— Albert Camus, The Myth of Sisyphus

So your experience is almost certainly different from mine, and it's difficult to quantify what exactly is "good" or "bad". I guess we're all just figuring it out for ourselves.