The Stars

"In the deepest and most important matters, we are unspeakably alone; and many things must go right, a whole constellation of events must be fulfilled, for one human being to successfully advise or help another."

— Rainer Maria Rilke, Letters to a Young Poet

19th - 22nd August 2017

Woke up to see red sores on Tofu's hind legs, immediately took him to the vet. 

They decided to inspect the wound on his back again, and the outcome was terrifying. 

They shaved off more hair to look at the wound and the more they shaved the more scary shit they found. 

The vet said that it looked like some kind of allergy but the wound patterns were so random and strange and unlike anything he had ever seen before, so he did not know what it was. He contacted a pet dermatologist. 

Did not spoil Tofu's appetite though. 

Poor little bae couldn't sleep in his crate with the cone. 

He couldn't sleep from the discomfort ): 

Waiting for a response from the specialist, but it was friday so the blood work wasn't out for her to look at yet. 

My poor half bald baby. 

I was trying to fill his cone with popcorn but he was having none of that haha. 

He's gonna miss Celine when she leaves ): 

Easy one tray lunch for my lunchbox. 

Sangria night! 

Housemate BBQ night (: 

Then movie times for us, wrapped up in thick blankets lol. 

Trimming the doge's hair because it was getting all stuck on his wounds ):

Silly pup got so clingy and kept lying down on MY spot, even though the bed is huge. 

The next day I received a call from the vet while I was in lecture, to bring Tofu in ASAP for a full biopsy because they suspected that he was in a bad way. I rushed home to get him. 

It was a pretty traumatic experience to be honest, thankfully the vet team was really great <3 

Thanks Taylor :') 

Poor boy was all groggy from his procedure. 

Broke my heart to see all the puncture marks they made to collect samples and the markings they made to track the progression of the condition. 

He was a little cold because he was not used to not having fur on his back ): 

Trying my best to make him comfortable because he couldn't fit into his crate with the cone. 

I was so worried for Tofu because we had no idea what was going on except that it was bad. Sam flew in the next day to take over when I left home for clinic.

So glad to leave for home to see my two boys. 

We had Nene Chicken for dinner and that made the anxiety a lot better for for a bit hehe. 

So hungry looking at this right now. 

Poor boy, but at least he had both mami and daddy. 

<3

Dear Stranger, Extant in Memory By The Blue Juniata

"So little of what one is threads itself through the eye of empty space.

Never mind
The self is the least of it.
Let our scars fall in love."

— Galway Kinnell, featured in The Book of Nightmares

14th-18th August 2017: Clinic x Vet

Waking up at ungodly hours for clinic and not wanting to leave the bed. 

Courtney brought us cupcakes for tea time! 

They're so simple and pretty. 

Home before the sun fully set which is rare. 

Cuddles with the one who's always glad to see me. His nose was starting to recover. 

Rainy day chinese food comforts. 

This girl came to visit!

Intensive selfies ensued. 

Yup

Un huh. 

Goodbye Aunty Natty! 

She left a christmas toy for him (he destroyed it within 2 weeks) 

"Hi mum, I'm hungry." 

This took me way too long to cook. 

Celine made oatmeal cookies! 

Came home to a wet doggo who ran out of the house when Jon opened the door. 

He was acting really skittish and weird. 

Had to coax him for a good 10 minutes before I could get him in the bathroom to dry. 

That's when I found the first scar :'( 

He was happy to have a chew but clearly upset and scared. 

Tried to cuddle him into feeling better. 

Cute pen from my love! 

Woke up early to take him to the vet. 

Couldn't find anything wrong with him, we figured the wound was from a fall he had when I wasn't home (he was heard yelping one day by my housemates but they couldn't visibly see anything wrong). 

Dropped him home before I went off to school! 

Beautiful day for lunch on the lawn. 

<3