Wednesday, May 2, 2018

Short Reprieve

The last 7 days went by in a whirlwind. Leading up to 26th April, I spent almost every single day working hard (and at a few opportune moments, hardly working) so that I could savour each of the 7 days in their entirety guilt-free. Sam arrived in Perth at noon on his birthday and we had the best time just walking Tofu and having a good dinner and some drinks. (For the sake of continuity, I will not upload the pictures until I have "gotten there" in my upload of backlogged photographs). I really appreciate doing simple things together; having a meal, watching lame videos, or even just being with each other in companionable silence. I appreciate them even more now in the light of our ongoing LDR. The lifestyle and atmosphere in Perth is also so different from what we're used to in Singapore; while there are both pros and cons, I really enjoy it and I'm glad that we get to share it.

Cherry and her boyfriend arrived the morning after Sam. That morning was also the day of my first driving test, first because I failed it within 5 minutes. I am half ashamed to admit this in writing because I feel that it puts me in a bad light - I must've done something incredibly stupid to have been booted out so quickly. But the truth of the matter is that what happened could have happened to anyone, and the reason for my failure was not due to my driving skills or the lack thereof. It was quite a traumatic morning for me nevertheless and the feelings of loss and disappointed continued to hit me as the days progressed. I am sometimes averse to failure so I am still coming to terms with it, but feel a lot better now. Having the bf and bff around alongside lots of fun plans really did help!

In any case, I got back on my feet and decided to enjoy the short holiday time I had with some of my favourite people in the world. We had the best time - visiting the sights, eating good food, making less good but nonetheless cosy meals, laughing, going to the beach, and all the other activities that make you feel warm and fuzzy inside. Quality truly trumps quantity.

At this current moment sitting alone in my bed in a quiet room, devoid of all of Sam's belongings (and most pertinently, devoid of his presence), I feel a little lost. I'm glad that I thoroughly enjoyed myself in the past week but it's also time for me to shift gears and get my head back into the game again. Getting a new driving test date has been proving to be difficult but I am praying for the best. The growing sense of inertia has also been plaguing me lately but I will continue on as I always have.

All will be fine.

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