Smouldering

I've recently started a new teaching job and it's quite unlike anything that I've ever done before. I teach Speech & Drama to nursery and kindy aged kids. At the end of the school year, they will have to  stage a performance successfully and that places a lot of stress on my shoulders. This job came as a surprise really, I was initially only hired to be a teaching assistant for the Mandarin drama classes, but when my boss asked if I would like to undergo training to be a teacher myself, I thought "why not?"

So here I am a couple of weeks later, I've 3 tiny classes under my care and they are a handful - in both good and bad ways. The first lesson was challenging to say the least and I actually feel slightly out of my depth here, need to think of ways to improve myself.

Of the late, I've been having a little trouble dealing with frustration. I've been smouldering for years - years and years and years; and sometimes, the smog gets overwhelming and spills over. I wonder if I'll smoulder forever, or if the fire will die out by itself one day.